I miss working, I miss my old life..

Things have been going pretty smoothly for the past few weeks. I only vomit occasionally and appetite is less crazy than before. Now the only thing I don't feel right is that I am not working. I have to say, I'm pretty damn spoilt for someone as lucky as me. I receive a 'salary' from my husband every month for taking care of the house (which now I don't, because I am staying at mum's place and living it up like a queen.) and I basically need not lift a finger to do a single household chores. Yet, I am desperately dying to get back to work. This is very ironic, when people are working, they wish they can be resting at home. When you are too free at home, you feel you should go out and work. LOL. Can never be satisfied.

Anyway, I am now in my 10th week of my pregnancy and am feeling very good except for the large outbreak of pimples on my face and body. I've been trying to do everything I can to prevent more from coming up, but it seems whatever I do does not work at all. I cannot wait till my 2nd trimester. Hopefully things will get better then. :)

Next scan is on 10th August. It is our OSCAR scan and R will be there with me. Thank God he was able to take leave that day! I cannot wait to see our 2 little babies and hopefully they be good and put on a show for mama!

Will update more again!

xoxo,

J.

Arhh choo!!

It had been raining on and off a few days back. In between battling morning sickness and constant fatigue, I now have to battle the FLU. I must have gotten myself sick when I got caught in the rain last Saturday. It was raining heavily and I got wet.

Now I am sleepy, flu-ey and really grouchy. I'm probably just going through a really rough patch of this pregnancy, but I am still thankful I get to enjoy this process. I know I shouldn't complain, because if I compare myself to someone who has been trying for a baby for a long time, I am waaaay luckier than them. It's just that I didn't know pregnancy could be this difficult, especially when you are carrying twins. I am just really glad that my hormones seem to have decided to work out among themselves and I am beginning to feel less bloated and miserable. I am still breaking out and so can't wait to see the doctor on Monday and ask him for medication for the pimples. I am also wondering if there's still a need for me to continue with the Progesterone, so we'll see how that goes.

In between receiving good news from friends and forum mates that they are pregnant, I am also seeing the failures of some friends and forum mates. To you guys, I just wanna tell you this, "Don't ever give up. So you fail once, you try again. You fail a second time, you try again. You keep trying till you finally have your baby in your arms and you don't give up. Nobody said this journey is easy. But if having a baby is what you really want, don't let your past failures put you down. Chin up, prep your body better and keep trying. You try till the point where the doctors say there's nothing more they can do for you, and even then, try naturally. While trying, keep praying and believing. Practise affirmations, telling yourself that you will be pregnant." Picture yourself holding a beautiful baby. You'll be surprised how our minds work.

I leave you with this today,

Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him, and He will help you. Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for Him to act. - Psalm 37:5,7

Shalom my friends,

J.

Here I am.. 8 weeks and counting..

I'm not going to find any excuses for myself so I'm just going to be honest and say that I have been really lazy and tired and depressed so I can't bring myself to blog lately.

Let's address these issues 1 by 1.

Lazy - I've quit my job to go for IVF and since then I have been very busy bumming around. I think it will do much good for me to work but guess no one would take on a pregnant lady carrying twins. So we're back to square 1 and watching tv and lazing in bed, ALL DAY.

Tired - Questionable, but you see, I wake up 2 - 3 times a night just to pee. And sometimes when I wake up, I will be ovecome by a hunger too much to ignore so I have to go find food, which will lead to eating and then trying to get to sleep. I am also wrecked with weird dreams, sometimes nightmares and then I will find it hard to sleep again. But if I were to nap in the day time, then I won't be able to sleep at night, so yes, it is a vicous cycle.

Depressed - I never had a worst breakout in my entire life. I now have pimples on my cheeks, my forehead, my neck, my shoulders and my back. It's like I am having all the pimples I was supposed to have in my teens now, when I am pregnant. I look forward to the days where I can face myself in the mirror again.

Enough of being depressed, moving onto to cheerful news. A couple of people in my life that I know of are alo pregnant! I am so happy for them and am glad to know these girls because then our babies can be playdates! It's really a different feeling when bonding with another mum to be, especially if you were already friends before. It brings you to another closeness in your friendship as you share all the gory details of pregnancy.

I'm going to abruptly end my post because I have to go prepare dinner. I told my family that I will prepare something wonderful for them, actually I'm just going to prepare steamboat. Hahaha, zero cooking on my part!

Talk to you all soon. I'll be back with some cool good to know info next.

xoxo,

J.