I can't even know where to begin.

They say a picture speaks more than a thousand words. So here you go.

There is so much I wanna update. So to make things easier, I will update the blog in three different parts.

1st part: The birth story and the events leading to it.

2nd part: The NICU stay and lessons learnt.

3rd part: How the twins, J and R are currently doing.

As you can see, these will be very lenghty blog posts, so I must get into the mood first (and hopefully still awake) before writing.

But I just wanna self praise a bit first. My friends gave me a new nickname, no longer chilli padi but energiser bunny. I went around the northwest area of Singapore to collect hand me downs for a church and school I am helping in the Philippines. After that, my mum and I unpacked the packets of clothes and put them into the box we intend to ship over. Then I did Bella's nails and finally prepared the twins for their evening wind down session. I then found the extra energy to do up some spree stuff and updated my online selling album. Man oh man! And now, blogging!

A few things that I felt I have neglected since I got preggy and given birth. They are, maintaining this blog, Bella, my online biz and my hubs. But really can't be helped cause the babies sometimes do take up quite a bit of time. Ok, so I will keep this post short for now, will update more tomorrow.

I hope.

Moo-ing,
J

Another letter to my babies..

Dear Little J and R,

We are already at week 24 of my pregnancy. My stomach is getting bigger by the day because you both are growing so well. R likes to kick me at the ribs and J likes to kick me in the bladder. You both seem to have a rave party at different times of the day especially even more so when I am desperate to rest. Headaches occur almost everyday now, and the discomfort in the left ribs area really makes it hard for me to sleep at night. Tell you something funny, when we went for our detailed scan during week 20, we were told that we were expecting 2 princesses. Apparently R decided that he wouldn't show his penis to the sonographer until week 23 when we went for another scan. I hope the J still remains a girl because we have too many pink clothes already! By the way, my sister, your aunt, is getting married on 6th Jan. I hope that you both can stay in my tummy until after the wedding. Please don't come out any earlier otherwise we cannot go. Mummy and your aunt will be very disappointed.

Alright, mummy's headache is returning again, am going to get some rest. Just want to let you both know that I love you both so much so much, and although people say that being pregnant is the best thing that happened to them, they really didn't tell me how difficult it was going to be. =)

xoxo,
Mummy

18 weeks and counting..

Pardon the lack of posts. I had been trying to deal with mild levels of depression coupled with days of extreme laziness and found no motivation to blog at all.

Yes, we are at week 18, going to 19. Let's first talk about some of the changes that happened over the past few weeks.

1. Obvious tummy growth. I think my 2 babies went through a growth spurt and it's pretty evident now I'm pregnant. I no longer look like I ate too many pies and have a fat stomach. It's nicely rounded and I proudly stick it out at every opportunity I get.

2. Breast changes. The aerolas seem to have a mind of its own and have decided to expand in size. Someone from the facebook group told me that the nipples will expand and darken as the pregnancy progresses. This is to make the nipples more obvious for the baby and make it easier to latch. (not too sure how true it is, but it kinda makes sense.)

3. Stretch marks. I am beginning to see the formation of some new battle scars. They look angry and red, but to me, they are a reminder of what I am going through and in future, what I've been through in order to have these 2 babies.

4. Change in appetite. I keep feeling that foods either taste too salty or too sweet and it puts me off. I like my food bland and as complicated as possible for now. This is good news for R as he need not drive around the whole of Singapore to satisfy my weird cravings.

5. Morning sickness returns with a vengeance. I no longer am able to brush my teeth in the mornings without first puking out an obscene amount of orange-jy bile. There I'll spend at least a good whole minute trying to compose myself while willing the stomach not to hurl. I'll be heaving and puffing like a blowfish while clutching my stomach and feeling ultra shitty.

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I think that's about the changes for the past few weeks. I meant to post up a decent pic of my tummy (fully clothe) but am lazy to transfer the picture over, so I gotta wait till I'm in the mood then I shall do it.
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So the night before I woke up a few times feeling extreme cramps in my lower abdomen area and I honestly thought I had very bad urinary infection or what. It got so bad I wasn't able to walk and would have to sit and wait for it to subside. The tummy would also feel rock hard at the same time and I would simply rub a few times thinking that the baby is stretching or what. Little did I know that the pain I felt was contractions and it's a sign of early labour. Prof was pretty shocked that I waited 2 hours to see him when I should have just gone to A&E straight. But honestly, how was I to know those crampy feelings were in fact contractions? I mean, I have not had babies before, so I wouldn't even know what labour feels like. Hehehe.. So anyway, I am on Adalat 10mg twice a day + had a jab so I think I should be fine. Bed rest for the next few days again, but I did tell the doctor that I have to go shopping first week of October so he's willing to compromise on that if I promise to bed rest after. =) Gosh, just when I thought I have the green light to go out and 'hiao', I have to stay in bed again. This pregnancy is so full of mini surprises! Ok, the Adalat seems to be making me sleepy, so am off to use the Baby Plus and nap.

I will touch on the BabyPlus on my next post. In the meantime, do take care readers!

xoxo,

J.